ANDREA'S: March 2013

Sleepless nights

Because on sleepless nights. Just lying there... alone. the thoughts just start flowing.

worst thing is when you realize that that person that's gone..... is you.

they don't stop. they just keep falling. till you don't even feel them anymore. they're there. they're falling. but what are they... nothing. just water. just hidden feelings. nothing.

sadly....

ok i really spent my whole night on tumblr.... till i even decided to create an account again... looks like im going to be spending a lot of time on tumblr now again....
andreajang.tumblr.com

this hurts..... a lot.

and i cried after each time.

life is a war. a living hell.

and right now im just waiting for my body to self shut down. because as much as i want to sleep. i can't. i tried. but i can't.

oh and since im already about to post i shall just add this here shortly.
Current March holidays hair <3

shall post a happier post again soon.... asap.

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, by Andrea

Sexy as hell.

Lesighpie.... when i get one of those depression periods in my life... i always just crawl around tumblr. Sadly, those are the periods when i feel ugly fat and unattractive as hell. So i look at pictures or sexy pretty fabulous bitches, eat ice cream and cry and feel just plain gross and unwanted... and when i look into the mirror i see a walrus look back at me. I pull myself down all the way.

BUT

After i get pass all that.... HERE COMES THE MOTIVATION BABY!
I know it ain't healthy... but it sorta works right? I put myself down to push myself and drive myself to strive for perfection...

Ok on to the main point.

I WANT ABS
I WANT A NAVEL PIERCING
I WANT TO DYE MY HAIR FULL BLUE/GREEN
I WANT EYEBROW PIERCINGS
I WANT TO LEARN DANCE.

Can u imagine already? IMAGERY PEOPLE!!!! actually, on top of that... i've decided that i really want... to go for plastic surgery... to fix my upper eye lids... but that ill have to wait for a long long time haha ok so these 5 first!

ABS.

just look at how fucking sexy that is.... SCREAM.

I can't express in words how bad i want those lines right now.....

Actually tbh i've always wanted abs... for a very long time now... but i guess my problem is consistency. I need to be more consistent in training those babies hahaha

i actually follow this abs workout most and sometimes this and this and random victoria secret model workouts u__u

I try to push myself to do at least 10 minutes everyday and sometimes i just randomly go to youtube search for any random video and just do it haha but most of the time i just go to a playlist and just do my favourite few which make my stomach hurt like CRAP

But everytime i eat and go crazy over food.... i end up meeting my long lost not so long ago and not so lost friend tina the talking tummy again T__T

hmm but hwaiting to me. Im totally in the mood now hahaha. i just have the thinking that having abs will me more valuable to people... in a way. ideky but yeah i don't plan to stop until i get the body i want.

BELLY PIERCING

need i say anything? imagine me with abs. and a navel piercing..... FUCK

but i promised myself. that i will not get my piercing until i get abs which satisfy me.

so good luck to me then..... urgh

HAIR

I never did get my turquoise highlights last year :( ordered turquoise la riche directions dye from pretty pieces but never got my dye =___= urgh

OMFG. Taking a look at the la riche directions colour chart now hahahaha

Seriously can't wait for june hols \m/ Im gonna just fuck remedials haha either let me enter school with blue hair or whatever ill just not go for anything....

GREEEEEEEEN HAIR I LOVEEEEEEEEEEE GREEEN HAIRRRRR

But its quite common already :( so blue hair here i come haha sorry green, i still love you <3

EYE BROW PIERCING

look at how fucking sexy that it..... ok after what happened to my ear... im quite scared to get an eyebrow piercing :x i mean imagine having to cut your face open.... YIKES