ANDREA'S

Who is Charlotte Free? a model and my new female eye candy :3

So i was searching for pictures of items i have online so i could use those pictures to sell and well... i was searching in Forever 21 when i came across Charlotte Free 8) and i was like HEY SO PRETTY then i just anyhow click click and got to see more of her pictures and im like ♡o♡ i like!

 AND SHE'S SO CUTE XD idk why but in this picture she really looks like Avril Lavinge :\ I LIKE ^^

Ok so recently.... i've been pretty alive on my blogshop which is.... good and bad! good cause im earning money bad cause im spending money ;____; things are so cheap its amazing!!!!!! Like this leopard print and black raglan with a pocket i got at $9 MAILED and bugis is selling it at like $15? and like lenses from korea for $15? ok fine ex.... but damnnnn natural and pretty cannot find in super barbie/luxury/beuberry/ifairy new or old/kimchi/geo/eos etcetc hahahhaha

Oh and im deciding to change my style cause well i have this thought that if i dress differently make up differently and have a different haircut maybe things won't always go the same way

aish or maybe i just wanna be one of those drama queens who go on a total make over after a breakup HAHAHHA ok so i came across this shop and im in love i want this red dress thats $13 this black jeggings thats $5 this red jeggings thats $13 and this leopard print dress thats $8 i shall bargain it to $30-35 :3 heheheh and i want these preorder items... omg i want everything!!!

Supply Rates
This spells D A N G E R
because i always always always ALWAYS buy things on impulse like seriously i can't resist cheap shit and im a major shopaholic like i shop like crazy i have to choose kpop vs clothes..... uh..... ill cut down on kpop LOL THATS HOW MUCH I LOVE FASHION BABY but i love kpop too :\ hehhhhhhhh

Ok so recently i found this supplier AND JUST FML LENSES ALL SO CHEAP IM GONNA HAVE ONE ORDER EVERY WEEK I SEND IN ORDERS UFEHIUDVGSDUG

ifairy new $8.50 ifairy old $8 kimchi $7 super barbie $6.50 geo $8 luxury $7 and lots more!!!!!!!

also polaroid films at superrrr cheap $9.50 for cartoon films INCLUDING STAINED GLASS and also $9.50 for those 2 in one packs for plain films so its like <50 cents per film OMG DIE ME DIE im gonna order so many ;___;

Then there are these tattoo leggings.... yes i said im changing style so im going all for jeans jeggings leggings and stockings now! no more girly chiffon skirts! and they are $7.50! ok not that cheap but to have ribbons/moustaches/stars/acesspadescloversdiamonds/hearts/skulls all over your leg... ITS WORTH IT BABY YEAH HAHHAHAHAHHAHA  

ok now.....
I LIKE AVRIL LAVIGNE im in love with her songs and Favorite at the moment.... RUNAWAY probably because it totally suits my mood these few days :\
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7CbRwC7ByiU

and and and I LOVE DAISO

I SHALL DO A DAISO HAUL SOON :3
i got sunglasses, buttons, this thing i made into my bun maker, a leopard print makeup pouch, a furry beanie and a mask thingy today ^___^ YAY DAISO FTW


ok this is just a short post cause im so bored and i decided my blog needs some happy posts


AND MY MY TOP 3 FAVORITE BLOGGERS
I LOVE QIUQIU

YAY \M/

Ok so just today and some other times i go all high and crazy lol who reads out math questions in a chipmunk voice? me! who jumps and screams at the most random places ever? me! who walks around without shoes on? me! LOL retarded me.
 sometimes i wonder if i really do look like this HAHAHHAHAH sadly..... sometimes im just like this because well.... to cover up. To hide all my anger and frustrations and just be known as a happy person LOL happy irl angry on twitter why? cause thats just me... when im alone and my mind is thinking i can't bottle everything up and not explode unlike when im around people...

When was i last crazy like that due to joy.... hmm.... probably when i went to sing k with kayleigh carrot and raymond :) not long ago but how often do we get to meet now adays? really really not often anymore.....
 But heh good things never last~ we whipped our hair back and forth we whipped our hair back and forth~

Ok so now for my rants..... recently... i think i've started thinking too much again... my superrrr bad habit cause my imagination is wild and to be honest.... i am super...... what word should i use....

insecure probably. About looks? and especially about clothes and friendships....

I can't stand repeating outfits more than 3 4 times? in fact if i wear like a dress to one event... ill try to never ever ever ever ever wear it to another event again... like really im that particular which is why im so sad to say.... im going to sell my black lace heart leopard print dress soon although i supa luv it but i've worn it far too many times ;___; i don't even know why im so particular about this but.... i just am.

Also i really hate hate HATE leaving home without my contacts.... except for school when i really just can't give a fuck about how i look like anymore.... but at other times i really just.... rather stay home ;___; the one time i wore my glasses you can't imagine how thick i drew my eyeliner and all....


So i camwhore so what? its really just psychology... ALL NORMAL GIRLS TAKE PICTURES... because of angles, lighting, effects and sometimes photoshop, most girls can look pretty and now tell me.... what girl doesn't want to pretty? even guys want to be pretty LOL i remember someone said something about me like 'insecure still can post so many pictures' something like that well what do i have to say about that? DIAM at least im brave enough to post my pictures =___= But how often do you see my no contacts no make up face? uh.... 0 on my current fb? LOL

Ok and i really don't know if there is such thing as friendship insecurity but heh i don't ever know what i write for my english/lit papers but i still get As so heh i won't care to find out now either cause im just that lazy.

I think... i am easily replaced. I posted it on twitter yesterday and natasha told me i wasn't to her and tbh i felt a little happy but it only lasted for a few seconds because well thats what my past said too. But its really happened so many times i just.... see it coming all the time now. I don't trust anymore and when i say this i don't mean it like most people LOL AND THIS IS NOT A FUCKING EXCUSE LETMEASKYOUSOMETHINGISNOTBEINGABLETOTRUSTOTHERSANEXCUSEFORFUCKINGMISTAKES?! FUCKINGBULLSHITFUCKINGSTUPIDFUCKINGRUBBISHWHYCANTSOMEPEOPLETHINKBECAUSETHEYOPENTHEIRMOUTH? STUPIDSTUPIDFUCKINGSTUPIDSERIOUSLYYOUTHINKITSFUNTOALWAYSDOUBTEVERYONEANDIREALLYMEANEVERYONEAROUNDME?

Maybe thats why i like to surround myself with a lot a lot a lot of friends... to make myself feel.... safe? But sometimes it doesn't even work i end up getting even more upset because i know that numbers don't matter they can all leave together in one day. THEAMOUNTOFTIMEYOU'VESPENTWITHAPERSONDOESN'TMATTER EITHER! SO WHAT BITCHES SO WHAT  GOING THROUGH HAPPY AND SAD ANGRY AND CONFUSED TIMES TOGETHER DON'T MEAN ANYTHING YOU MAY MEET EVERYDAY NOW BUT WHO KNOWS HOW LONG THAT WILL LAST YOU NEVER KNOW YOU WILL NEVER KNOW

I just want someone to talk to..... There are so many things i just bottle up and trust it I DON'T WANT TO but tell me? who can i talk to? If i tweet it now people will be like 'you can talk to me' but im always in doubt... because i did try and look what fucking happened?! there are a lot of things.... i still keep as my deep dark secrets... I always dream of having someone to run and cry to and i always dream of  losing everyone again....

It happened before again and again it can happen anytime again now.... People cry over idols all the time what do i have in common? i cry over people who don't give a fuck im crying. But they are the people who would have used to care... The most is to cry over doubts which is why im crying now... i feel replaced again. Like before. Replaced. Easily replaces. i should change my url to replacablebitch.blogspot.sg 

This is probably the reason behind why i've felt so.... confused and so damn easily agitated the few days... im really really reallyyyyy easily replaceable.... its happened at every part of my life and now i think its happening at the one place i thought would never happen..... im crying myself to sleep again every night because of this because you really don't know how it feels like to lose every important person to you especially..... ..... .... ... .... .....

If i ever lose kayleigh jen or carrot.... i really don't know what ill do....i really don't even want to think about it.



i feel out of place everywhere....

i don't even want to talk to my school councilor when i have to.... basically my grades are good now fullstop and i wish everyone would leave me alone now. i know i have a problem but seriously talking to a freaking school councilor ain't gonna help ANYTHING it'll just add on to my worries what if i accidentally said something i wanted to keep secret? I do tell people things but sometimes... they are fake.... half fake... or just half the story.... i really hate the word 'bestfriend' because after i lost my last one i haven't trusted anyone to become my 'best friend' again and i haven't had a best friend in idk how many years....

Lifelong friends? just a myth. there ain't such a thing. Theres always someone out there whose prettier/skinnier/more talented/richer/cooler/smarter etc

I do try to trust i really try so hard but one person.... i think im going to lose anytime now and the other just doesn't seem interested, doesn't care, doesn't even want to talk/text/whatever.


People always neglect my feelings.... because i always just put on a fake smile and
 'are you ok?' 'yes :D'
 'are you crying?' 'dry contacts :D'
 'is anything wrong?' 'nope :D'
 'why do you look so sad?' 'im not :D/im just bored :D/im just tired :D/im fine :D etc'

Call me two-faced. But would you rather i show a fucking attitude like how i feel?
'are you ok?' 'what do you want'
'are you crying?' 'so what?'
'is anything wrong?' 'you ask me i ask who?'
'why do you look so sad?' 'cannot arh? my face leh'

your pick you choose.

I try to be a shimmering pink glitter like everyone else when im actually a shine-less glitter which has lost my colour because of all the tears that washed it all away and all the doubt i always have all the grudges and anger i bottle up all the time... But why spoil the picture? i'd rather fake it and paint my self pink and throw shimmer over me until i don't even know my old self anymore...

Which smiles are real which are fake? i really don't know sometimes... what truly makes me happy? i don't know either.


Let me cry again. the worst part is how sometimes.... my close friends are the ones who care the least... are you dumb or do you really just not think. Don't you realize how your words and actions can actually hurt me? yes i look ok but as my close friend you should already know me well enough to know i always fake it.

Sometimes i feel like i got stabbed in the heart.... As though my friend came me and was like 'guess what? i was the airport one day and i saw beast there! i took pictures with them i got them to sign my name and i hugged all them' or sometimes even like 'i went to korea i found hyunseung i fucked him and im pregnant with his baby now' Like seriously and life ain't all about idols and fangaling i am NOT just a fangal.

My mind is not all about kpop, hot/cute/handsome guys, fanservice, stalking etc

Life is not all about being a fangal you know? stop always treating me like we're at some concert stop and just grow the fuck up

Ok so i hate school.... A LOT because well firstly... waking up so early in the morning already makes me moody.... and since my coloured contacts kept getting caught, I'm left with no choice but to wear glasses or clear contacts... which makes me feel ugly and thus, making me feel very insecure with 0 confidence and thus, making me paranoid, easily agitated and well... even moodier.

Plus adding on to all that... no fringe no fillers no anything to hide behind because every teacher is out to get me like seriously... so many people with messy hair with mini mini mini skirts with no socks with coloured contacts with dyed hair with thick make up but NO im the only target... You wouldn't believe how much shit i got the moment my grades dropped.... i really just.... hate school....

Not to mention people too.... Like i said my judgement is so fucking poor i seriously have a problem with choosing friends lol maybe its just because i've always been left out half the time/all the time.... always been left behind... everywhere i go it happens... maybe i was used to it for a while... because of kpop events. I got used to friends coming and easily leaving for one reason or another. But i just can't stand it anymore..
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 It just happened so many times, i don't even cry anymore. Sometimes i just see it before it even happens because well... you can't name me a situation i haven't went through...

Right now.... school is just.... a place for study and study alone so how do i express how much i hate the fact that i can't spend recess in class T_T i hate having to be forced to the canteen and have to find someone to cling to or ill be alone... School=7-9 hours of learning LOL



Heheheh how happy am I? im really superrrr happy cause i can actually talk to the guys easily now and well elijah joe dominic all live at yishun so.... I CAN TAKE THE MRT WITH THEM! DOUBLE BONUS <3 Not to mention eating with them is so much more fun too! Like although sometimes they talk about some computer games and im just like .___. But other times im actually laughing ^__^

Hopefully.... next year... the class i go to.... i'll have some of them with me or at least just some people i can chiong for the bus with lol hahahahah fingers crossed <3

Had a flea again yesterday :) originally the plan was to book 4 booths me kayjenrot shuqi crissan geraldine and shermin but..... in the end only kayjenrot + me and shuqi lol but its ok BECAUSE ITS STILL A FLEA xD didn't earn much..... cause i spent a lot? :\ heh idk i go to sell or buy lorh HAHAHHAHAHA


All our stuff ^___^ heheheh happy luggage family <3 ok so now we like every month have flea hahahhaha MONTHLY FLEA \M/ omg and i may be going to malaysia again next wed-sat to....PLAY /crossed fringers/ gonna buy like 5-10 of the RM10 wolf shirt and sell it all at SGD10-15 :3 then flea again yay\m/

and im thinking..... maybe i will book a stall at the bottom of cine soon :\ basically its just higher rental and no pre <3 s allowed. but also....MORE CROWD AND NO BARGAINERS fgvsfugyusg and so many shops selling maxis at $28? i sell at $18 confirm win right? HAHHAHAH ok shall order like a whole bunch of items from my bs supplier soon ^__^

OHOHOHOH and not forgetting.... what i bought this time :3

 Ok the picture is so sucky T_T this is actually shuqi's dress though hahhahah can't remember how much i paid :\ i only remember i paid roughly $10 for it :\ Because well.... shuqi barely earned anything T_T so i felt bad and decided ok i shall buy something from her to help her to at least cover rent~ but heh it is nice no? :) a black off shoulder dress :) and the sleeve ain't any ordinary sleeve! its like sheer and fluffy? ok not fluffy :\ i don't know what word to use >_< IT CAN FLY :D lol what hahahah ok basically... ITS CHIO! :3
 i got this at only $4 UNBELIEVABLE??? its a leopard print romper with like a super chio and sexy back :3

These 2 were from fashion hooks at cine :x not the flea >< but THEY ARE SO GORGEOUS OoO
and at  1 for $20 3 for $50 only!!!!!!!!!! actually i wanted this jack union pocket guy's shirt but..... it was there on saturday and gone on sunday LET ME CRY T_T but heh these are pretty too right???? :D

 The long sleeved purple shirt i found in my luggage and was thinking if i should donate to salvation army or keep and i decided..... i can wear it! actually its a kid's top but.... heh :3

the blue spiral beads tank is too pretty for me to let go so i decided... i shall wear it u__u

the white spag i bought at 3 for $2 a looong time ago but never wore but now.... i think i can :) i think ill just pair it with jeans/hws? :\ tbh i really don't know but i just like the material its so soft so.... ILL WEAR IT ^^

The red thing in the center is actually stockings :\ bought with an old friend at 2 for $10 a loooong time ago but never got to wear and till now im still like :\ shall find a chance to wear hahah

The grey top at the back was kayleigh's and i bought it from her for 50 cents HAHHAHAH its actually like a grey crop tee with a pocket but with sheer black fabric at the sides which makes it cute? lol idk i just like it :3
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i bought another eye liner LOL but you can't blame me!!!!!!!! its MAC MAC MAC MAC MAC hahahha ok actually i bought it just so that shuqi's eye primer would be $15 instead or $19 i mean like $4 diff eh!!!! i paid $13 for this and its like AUTHENTIC MAC so im happy ^___^ but sad.... cause i have wayyy too many eye liners T_T elf nyx mac korean brand japan brand rhomlon unknown brand i everything also have luh HAHHAHAH ALL BUT BOBBI BROWN T__T

omg and i like can't find my bobbi brown foundation so..... ITS FUCKING SAD I WANT TO PUNCH SOMEONE PLS T___T hahah i think shuqi must be damn sad also cause she can't kope my powder anymore hahahha but yeah thats all i have to say :\

OHOHOH LOOK HERE READ THIS
I got an A for math!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 27/32!!!!!!!! thats an A thats an A im so happy ^___^

I haven't blogged in like the longest time cause well.... i don't know. But i realized i actually really like blogging because well... i don't like facebook and i don't want to write all this in 74238524656712 max 140 letters tweets and i don't really use tumblr much so.... whats the next best thing? blog! and i guess... its like an online diary/a friend to me? :\ since well... last time was like... calling a friend and we'll talk about our day and everything but..... heh this is my new bff aside from my pa which i only let kayjenrot and sabrina follow :)

ok at first on my first pa which only had 1 follower (kay) i let too many people follow and i like... didn't feel comfortable tweeting there anymore so hi new pa with 4 followers :) heheh so.... i haven't blogged in so long because.... i've been busy? :\ and because of COMMON TEST PERIOD

I actually studied this time so,,, *crossed fingers* :) i got 39/50 for one part of english and i guess thats good? :\ but at the same time bad cause my targets for that paper was higher T_T but theres still SA2 :) i shall aim for 42/50 minimum :3 i also think for this time round i did well for math and science :) not like fullmarks well but like for math... i actually knew how to do the questions which is... quite amazing to me considering SA1 i guessed half the paper :x and for science.... ill just say just my luck the parts i studied for came out :3 YES I ACTUALLY STUDIED SCIENCE OMG AMAZING

But i don't think i did well for geog :\ i really don't think i did well for geog T_T and for lit.... HAHAHHAHA ILL NEVER KNOW i can score well for reading a poem totally wrongly so.... i shouldn't worry too much right? :3 HAHHAHA ok so thats all i have to say about common tests.....


ok now...... I LOVE MY DEAR YE SHUQI
i invited her to sentosa last last sunday for running man and well.... she enjoyed herself! <3
So she came joined me again last friday and saturday and well...  this friday and saturday too ^__^ how do i express how happy i am? i think we like sort of drifted for a while before but i feel close to her again now <3 ohohoh and i love sabrina too <3 earcuffs earcuffs earcuffs yay we're like meeting every saturday to go for fleas before service sobs i love these 2 pabos <3 <3 <3
 OMG AND I WORE GLASSES TODAY(saturday :\ so... yesterday? haha)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
because of contact lens infection T_T RED EYES ARE SCARY RED EYES ARE REALLY SCARY ok just looking at our pictures i think of how crazy we were hahahha CRAZY BUT AWESOME OK? XD

ohohoh and me and shuqi got to take free polaroids :D yay yay yay \m/ pabo sabrina was late ;__; if not she would've taken too T_T heh hopefully the polaroid people are there again next week :3 heheheh greedy me

 oh hi :3 am i cute? HAHAH taken last friday :3 i wore jeans OoO I WORE JEANS BABY for the first time in 5 years when im not sick? HAHAHHAHA 
 Shuqi and me :3 pabo dress until so formal while i wore shirt jeans and canvas shoes :x hahahha ok i think jeans make my legs look fat :\ idk in what way and why i even think this way though :\ But heh no jeans too skinny with jeans too fat who knows what i want lol hahah and i always tell people not to care if they look fat so.... I DON'T CARE EH EH EH EH EH :3